universe

i tweaked my back a couple of days ago...
and ended up horizontal with ice for many hours since.
i think the universe was trying to tell me something,
i just wish it was a gentler reminder, but yes, if it were,
i probably would not have listened...
i take my body for granted...
i forget that i have not treated it so great -
bad posture for years, overuse of it's delicate limbs...
not paying close attention to its needs, not resting it enough.
every so often this happens, usually when i am
stressed about something, not sitting in an
ergonomic manner while making art...
and then i am forced to come to a full halt.
so this was as close as i could get to stopping.
one painting in three days...
and many hours of movie watching.
i am going to buy 3 more yoga balls
and use them for seats around the house/studio...
no more couch.
a little more attention to each moment...
more breathing
and less stressing.
and full realization the closer i get
to closure of a three year period
of learning patience,
learning to let go
and practicing being truly present.
(although those three things will continue in my life,
closure to one of the chapters feels kinda nice)